Dog Gone
By Tom Wachunas
“I guess you don't really own a dog, you
rent them, and you have to be thankful that you had a long lease.” - Joe Garagiola
“Dogs’ lives are too short. Their only
fault, really.”
- Alice Sligh
Turnbull
My previous post
on the sculptures of James Mellick was yet another reminder of just how much my
life has gone to the dogs of late. So for those of you who might find the
following to be so much (mush?) sentimental journalizing, tough. Get over it.
And while I’m at it, I might as well tell you that I cry at movies, too.
Anyway, one morning three weeks ago, just
before leaving home to run some errands, I went to the fridge as usual to get
out a couple of balogna pieces to stuff into our dog Spanky’s bone.
“Spanky,” I called out, “I got yer treat!” This had been a habit for the past 13 years
or so – his cue to dutifully (and hungrily – my, oh my, how they’re always hungry) scamper to his cage where
he snacked and snuggled when we were away from the house. Almost immediately it
hit me - a feeling of disorientation and emptiness, followed quickly by a jolt
of overwhelming melancholy. Spanky wasn’t going to have his treat that day, or
any thenceforth, because he simply…wasn’t.
There have been
other similar moments – teary-eyed episodes, really - in my days since that
one. Days flooded with the realization of just how many rhythms, rituals, and
routines in our daily lives were built on Spanky’s presence.
Days flooded with memories joyous and
bittersweet. On the day that my wife, Martha, and I went to the breeder’s house
in March of 2003, he was at first nowhere to be seen as we looked over his four
siblings playing in the living room. We were right on the verge of choosing one
of those black-and-white cuties to take home. Then, there he was, all of eight
weeks old and the largest of the litter. A fluffy flurry of brindle-colored fur
came tumbling down the steps from upstairs, gathered himself, and strutted into
the room with all the dignity of royalty. Thereafter he commanded, and got, our
affections.
Memories. Like
those first few weeks when I could hold him sitting upright in the palm of my
hand. Or his first encounter with snow deeper than he was tall. By the time he
trekked back into the house, he was completely encased in a coat of
perfectly-formed tiny snowballs. Or the staccato clicking of his nails on the
kitchen floor as he dashed for the side door and waited eagerly every time one
of us asked him, “Wanna go for a walk?”
Though the
oppressive heat of August is still a few months away, my dog days began on the
evening of May 6, when Martha and I returned home from the vet, gingerly lifted
Spanky’s blanket-wrapped body out of the car, and buried our beloved Shih Tzu.
The Little Lion now rests with the Tiger Lillies in our back yard. A star has
fallen from the firmament of our lives, and we are Siriusly saddened. I wonder,
can dogs appreciate puns?
Whimsical queries
aside, I’ve been wondering a great deal about what dogs might be given to
appreciate after living out their lives of blessing their human companions with
countless soul-soothing delights. I think it’s neither presumptuous nor
heretical to imagine that the all-merciful and loving Creator of Everything
would in turn provide a haven of happiness for creatures such as this. Is the
Scriptural promise of eternal reward meant only
for us humans?
Spanky’s last few
months were increasingly heartbreaking to witness. A number of ailments had put him into a dark
and silent place. But his final moments on the vet’s table were mercifully
quick, and without pain or struggle. And though blind and deaf when he left this place, I imagine his regal strut
all over again as he saw the open arms of his Creator and heard his words,
“Well done, good and faithful servant!” Followed, of course, with, “Spanky! I
got yer treat!”